it's funny

It's funnt how my life is changing... yesterday i saw the worst vision of myself... :( and i got scared today... he was writing ambigious sms to another... telling me that's my fault because i wasnt smiling and have a depression because of his new work and that he's never at home with me keeping me still alive in this world :(

how can I smile and "live" if he took me from all my friend and family, and now ...he left me and he lay down he's life only for work, because he's always tired and neveer have enough time for me :( hmmm... i got scared... I never expect that he could hurt me just like he done... ;( help me... im trapped inside...