for 11,06

arrive with frien, kissed me 10 min later, go alone inside the house, come to me for 10 min. surfed in internet 2h, fall asleep...;/

statistic for yesterday

if loger you'll wait, more you'll get -> sat down by the computer, went to bed, kissed me twice, hug dwice and fall asleep...

what will be today?

it's a parody of earlier me and him...

so believe again? ok, but how?

something inspiring...

and it's over...

today I finish one period of my life...
i took of all photos of me and him in his room...cos i live with him... I'm glad that i didn't make this tattoo... He's calling and writing almost all the time. now i could see that earlier he just don't want to do that.. sad but... i have this shit far away.. i'll be smiling... he must see that If he will ever try to get to know me again, in the end he will be jealous of me... 

wrote that he feel dizzy and his heart hurts... pfff... if his mind forget about yesterday, his heart is telling him enought... 

I'm glad that I didn't do it... this one on the right side..

it's funny

It's funnt how my life is changing... yesterday i saw the worst vision of myself... :( and i got scared today... he was writing ambigious sms to another... telling me that's my fault because i wasnt smiling and have a depression because of his new work and that he's never at home with me keeping me still alive in this world :(

how can I smile and "live" if he took me from all my friend and family, and now ...he left me and he lay down he's life only for work, because he's always tired and neveer have enough time for me :( hmmm... i got scared... I never expect that he could hurt me just like he done... ;( help me... im trapped inside...

co zostalo....

http://vimeo.com/16406087

i została mi 2 czesc filmu tylko...

i don't wanna be here...

really... i want only to close my eyes and disappear from this world ;( and never again born ;(