another "?"

It's weard how my life is changing... one day im in my hometown... another im here...
What can say more?
i dont know what i shod do next...
a lt of ppl are keen on me... and I? what I've done?
it's so stupid question... and only I... inside me know,that i failed..
im 21 and i'm failed... i let somebody down... who the person is?
i could only say that's not one person...
it's really hard to live here... but maybe ill fing strenght to go through this... maybe...
Where are my dreams? Where are my strenght?- but why im asking about it, so i've never had it..? weard...
so... keep going.. maybe one day I could say that i do everythink to make my life easer...